I NEED ADVICEEE.

Should I do this?

GIVEMEADVICE PLEEASE

I just want some sweet love.

Right now...
I really miss Salt Lake City!

I am sick of living in a hostile environment..

I am sick of missing my...

-boyfriend

-mom

-dad

-laurel

-tom

-FATGIRL

-Alexandra

-Emily

-Keahna + Little Man

-My own bed

-Plus everything else about SLC

I can't wait to go home!

8 more weekends, I can do it!

Not that Logan is terrible, actually it's pretty good.
I really like most of my friends up here. I'm not gonna lie...
I have a really good time! Just sometimes...I miss my home.

I try really hard to just live in the moment.
But not everyday is perfect.

Today.. I just want my boyfriend, my bed, and love.

Sometimes it's hard to live in a war zone.
I just want sweet simple love right now.
Thats all :)

Control

I do not understand some people.
I don't understand WHY they hate me?!

I don't understand why they are so crazy.

I don't understand why they are obsessed with control.
Why am I ALWAYS the bad guy?

You realize it's not always my fault.
Do you get the facebook stalking me will get you nowhere?

Do you get that you have made an 18 year old girl feel like crap?
You realize that you are in you 40's?
Maybe you should stop being mean...

Just a thought.
Right now I really really really
DON'T LIKE YOU.

To be honest there are not very many times when I do like you....

Or ever have.
Right now...
I'm very angry, sad, mad, confused, angry, upset, angry, angry, angry.
I wish you could disappear.
Sadly, you can't.
Too bad, cause that would be convenient.

Hopefully soon you can stop be judgmental and controlling

Until then...
-Lily Beth Baeder

Lucky girl

I have officially had two college exams. I did alright.
Not amazing, but not bad.
All in all, it was successful

I cannot describe my excitement to move home...

I love Salt Lake City

Also these days, I am feeling very lucky!

I can say I have the most amazing, loving, beautiful, kind boyfriend

EVER.

Today he told me...
“I love you natural, just the way you are, even if you are white and pale...you are perfect to me”

How lucky am I? 

Wow

This weekend...
Was general conference.

It was honestly so amazing, I took a lot of notes.
It seemed as though every single talk applied to my life.
I honestly learned so much.

Finally I am starting to figure my life out.
Next semester I am going to the U of U

I am going to study exercise and sports science.

I am going to become a seminary teacher
Hopefully this sticks, because this last month or so has been hard

But, at least for right now I have a plan. That is important.

Anyways, things are looking better.