Apologies

I think I blog way more than normal bloggers, so sorry. Throughout my whole high school experience, I always had more guy friends than girl friends. Actually to be honest for most of high school I only had 3 girl friends, and about 50 guy friends. I have always just felt much more comfortable hanging out with guys. Girls are very dramatic, judgmental, and to be honest, they intimidate me. Plus in my high school, there were two groups, really really really mormon, and not so mormon. Since I didn't get baptized until I was 16, I never really fit into either group. But since I've had a boyfriend, I've had to stop hanging out with my guy friends all the time, understandable, right? Problem, my best friend Alexandra isn't very dependable, so we don't hang out too much. Keahna had little Tama, so we don't hangout too much either, then Emily well, she moved to Provo. So here I am transferring to the U, and I have such a dilemma on who to spend my time with, besides my boyfriend. Ughghhh... Girls<Boys. 

Giving Thanks

Happy Thanksgiving! Today I helped my Mom cook, went skiing with my Dad, and came home and ate some good food! Today I am grateful for, my parents for being great parents and putting on a FULL thanksgiving when there is only three of us eating tonight! I'm grateful that everything seems to be falling into place, I'm going to the U this spring, my Dad said he would help me get a car, and the boyfriend let up on rush next fall! YAY! I also am grateful for my SIS, miss Kathryn Brown. She is one of the nicest kindest girls I have ever met! We basically live the same life, and we are so much alike. Honestly I forget she's a sophomore in high school. I love her and she is great! Hope everyone has a great thanksgiving! 

XOXO. L. 

I don't understand.

How last June, when I said the three of us would grow apart, and you got mad and said that would never happen, but its happening right now. How pictures never change but you have, so much. How my best friend is turning into the one woman I can't stand. Or how you used to want to spend every minute with me, and now a few minutes of your time is too much to give me. How you have made promises even though you know promises are almost impossible to keep. How slowly you are erasing me from your memories and life because its easier right now. How you don't understand what's happening. How I miss you, I miss us, I miss that stupid street, your car that hardly works, driving to your house for lunch, I just miss being your friend. I don't get that you don't care, and if you do care you aren't showing it. I don't understand how when we see each other now its awkward. Its understandable that you are going to change, and I am too, but it's not understandable to let a 5 year friendship end. I don't understand your reasoning. I know I'm not perfect, I know my friends aren't, or my family, nothing in my life is perfect. But I never thought that would hurt our friendship. I know that my home isn't yours anymore, but you can still try. We are very different and always have been, so why is this suddenly tearing us apart? I don't understand how you were one of the two MOST consistent friends in my life, and now you've become one of the least. I don't know why you didn't believe me last June, and prepare. I swore you would always be one of my best friends, but right now you seem just about as close as we were in 8th grade. I just am so sorry. I am sorry that I am not going down the path you are going down right now. I'm sorry that I'm still figuring things out. I'm sorry that I had to fall in love when I was 16. I'm sorry that I embarrass you. I'm sorry that I'm crazy. I'm sorry that right now, I don't fit in your bubble. I'm sorry that we are growing apart. I'm sorry that my life is not perfect right now. I know you say this is not why we are growing apart. But it has something to do with it. I'm not like all the new friends your meeting. I am in a completely different place, and its where I need to be now. I just don't understand how this is happening. 

CAUTION

Warning: This post is going to be gushy and full of love. If thats something you don't want to hear about, I advise you to STOP reading now, I repeat stop reading NOW. :) Since thanksgiving is coming up the I am starting to do posts about what I am thankful for. 

Today I am thankful for my boyfriend. He is the most loving, kind, and thoughtful person I know. He understands me so well and knows nearly everything about me, good and bad. He is a sweet heart. This past year has not been the easiest for him, but he has handled it with pure grace, exactly the way I would want my husband to handle problems. He has such a big heart for the people he loves and would do just about anything for them. It is honestly impossible to picture my life without him. He is ambitious, the hardest worker I know, and so strong. I love his weird little quirks, and yes, he has many. I love them. I love how he is such a guy and most important things I tell him to do, he doesn't. I love that he is almost exactly like my Dad, with some minor adjustments. I love that he is so consistent, and makes my life worth living. I love that he kisses my forehead. I just am SO lucky to have him and I take that for granted sometimes. But not today, today I am beyond grateful for him. I could go on and on, but I will spare you all the details of my personal life. 

I hope you all have a great thanksgiving and remember all the wonderful things in your life you have to be thankful for! 

XOXO. L. 

It's Official...

I am a UTE! I just finished with orientation at the U of U! I am so happy! I got all signed up for classes... I am taking...

Emergency Medical Responder

Prevention & Care of Athletic Injury

Writing 2010

General Biology

I am so so so so excited! I am so thankful for all the hard work my Mom did to get me to this point! She is so amazing and thinks about everyone but herself too much! For the next two weeks my Mom is getting an experimental surgery on her leg everyday, or close to it. We have very high hopes that this will work! I am very excited to see if this works. Lets keep our fingers crossed and send out a prayer for her! Today I am also very grateful for my best friend Alexandra. We have not always had the easiest friendship, but last night I spent some time with her, and I am just so thankful I have her as such a good friend when I need her. Anyways I hope everyone else has a great rest of the week!

xoxo L. 

all kinds of kinds

Thank you Miranda Lambert for inspiring me to change my blog name, along with other changes within this lovely blog! The new name comes from Miranda Lambert's new song, "All Kinds of Kinds"

Pure genius. I encourage all of you to listen to it, even if you don't like country, it is truly a great song. 

"Now some point a finger and let ignorance linger
If they'd look in the mirror they'd find.
That ever since the beginning to keep the world spinning
It takes all kinds of kinds.
All kinds of kinds."

This song basically says that everyone is different and it takes all kinds of kinds to make this world what it is. We have to be grateful for everyone, because all the differences in the world make it what it is. I'm so grateful we have so many people who are interested in so many different things, it makes the world interesting and diverse. Never for a second, should we want everyone to be the same. 

Ex is the shape I put through your face

In every relationship, new or old, there is always the issue of the EX. Even in the perfect relationship their is jealousy from a past boyfriend or girlfriend. I have definitely experienced this... Not only has my boyf's ex tried to make me mad, jealous, and worried, but she is absolutely a nut! Not to say my ex's are much better, but I mean at least they don't purposely make my boy jealous. Anyways its a great thing I trust my boyfriend completely! Sorry sweetie, but you are not going to get any "mentor" anytime soon. 

On the other hand...Last night I had so much fun! I love Salt Lake, and everyone here! Its always so much fun. Can't wait to officially move home. Not much longer now. 

xoxo. L.

Change?

They say that cutting your once long beautiful (for the most part) hair is a sign on emotional distress.

For example, the ever so infamous tale of Britney Spears shaving her entire head. We all know her life had a serious downfall after that event. Well, recently I chopped a good 6 inches of my hair off, without caring. 

If you know me, you know that my hair is precious to me, and doing this is not normal.

Surprisingly enough, I still seem to 'care less' about this new do. I don't think its great but I don't hate it. 

I wanted a change, and needed one. Seeing as though things in my life are quite confusing. But only 5 more weekends until I move back to good ol' SLC for good.

Lately in Logan there has been quite a bit of roommate drama, I will spare you all the nitty gritty details, but things have been quite dramatic. Another great reason to move home! But as of right now I think we got almost everything worked out between us roomies. We will see in the ensuing week. Anyways... I better go I'm pretty sure my typing is keeping up Eliza! Haha. 

This is the new hairrr...

The Show.

A couple of weeks ago my roommate and I switched rooms.

I now share a room with Eliza. This switch, much needed, and I feel great about it!

But obviously living with 7 girls is not an easy feat. 

There are fights, and many disagreements. I guess thats part of the whole college thing though...

It is quite refreshing to come to SLC every weekend and be with family. 

Other than the room change, Logan has been fine. Just some tests, assignments and quizzes. The norm.

I would just like to note; college classes are a million times better than high school!

Its lovely. I actually like school. 

Weird. 

I know. But it is official! I am DEFINITELY coming to the U for spring semester!

I am so excited to be back with friends and family! 

Lately I have been missing the way things were, I am angry that things changed on me.

I am bugged that my very best friend moved to Provo without me :(

I am mad that Alexandra and I aren't as close as we used to be.

I am mad that things are different. 

I am happy that I have gotten closer to Keahna and Little Man

I am happy that my boyfriend is here for me, always. 

*Sorry for the freaky picture. Its the only recent picture of us four together*

Right now I am just a very confused girl. Hopefully this confusion goes away...

Because I like having a plan. 

Anyone that knows me, knows I need a plan, and it needs to be a plan I actually like.

Ahhh. So much going on in my head... 

Until next time my lovelies! 

xoxo. L