I don't understand.

How last June, when I said the three of us would grow apart, and you got mad and said that would never happen, but its happening right now. How pictures never change but you have, so much. How my best friend is turning into the one woman I can't stand. Or how you used to want to spend every minute with me, and now a few minutes of your time is too much to give me. How you have made promises even though you know promises are almost impossible to keep. How slowly you are erasing me from your memories and life because its easier right now. How you don't understand what's happening. How I miss you, I miss us, I miss that stupid street, your car that hardly works, driving to your house for lunch, I just miss being your friend. I don't get that you don't care, and if you do care you aren't showing it. I don't understand how when we see each other now its awkward. Its understandable that you are going to change, and I am too, but it's not understandable to let a 5 year friendship end. I don't understand your reasoning. I know I'm not perfect, I know my friends aren't, or my family, nothing in my life is perfect. But I never thought that would hurt our friendship. I know that my home isn't yours anymore, but you can still try. We are very different and always have been, so why is this suddenly tearing us apart? I don't understand how you were one of the two MOST consistent friends in my life, and now you've become one of the least. I don't know why you didn't believe me last June, and prepare. I swore you would always be one of my best friends, but right now you seem just about as close as we were in 8th grade. I just am so sorry. I am sorry that I am not going down the path you are going down right now. I'm sorry that I'm still figuring things out. I'm sorry that I had to fall in love when I was 16. I'm sorry that I embarrass you. I'm sorry that I'm crazy. I'm sorry that right now, I don't fit in your bubble. I'm sorry that we are growing apart. I'm sorry that my life is not perfect right now. I know you say this is not why we are growing apart. But it has something to do with it. I'm not like all the new friends your meeting. I am in a completely different place, and its where I need to be now. I just don't understand how this is happening.